When illusion ends, what rushes in? Terror, then hopefully the calming sea.

The MRI showed two new lesions on my brain. My grand illusion evaporated. This illusion, a sturdy structure of columns and marble and rationalization and denial. Gone. For almost ten years, I had convinced myself that in 2006 the powerful, dangerous drug Tysabri had stopped new lesion growth, this notwithstanding the steady decline in my …

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