I am also anticipating taking a new drug to replace the olanzapine so that my metabolism can increase and I can get rid of these pounds around my waist my workouts on the hand bike are going very well, with wonderful caregivers who get me on the bike every day. this new year brings tremendous …

Blog post:HappyWhile Maria put me to bed last night, a profound feeling of happiness came over me. Life felt peaceful and ordered. When I fell deeply in love with Lisa, I used to say to her that life felt like it was in Technicolor. It felt that way again last night. Quietly happy. I was stuck and struggling before I moved here almost twoyears ago. Now I live in this beautiful place, the Landmark. I can go out to do things and talk to people if I want.I have good food here or in the local restaurants. I can write into my iPad by dictating. I can call my kids and friends and see people for meals in the private dining room or the restaurants.Lisa and I have built a life that mostly meets our needs. I spend Sundays at home in the Wallingford house with Lisa. She comes to see me as well. I miss her sometimes, but we text and call a lot. It is more of a sweet longing and less of a burning need.My bed adjusts the support to keep me from getting bedsores. Maria sees to my every physical need.I am happy, as happy as I can be. May Christmas bring you similar feelings. God bless us everyone.

My Legs

It is a liquid cement that never fully hardens. It surrounds my legs from the knee down. I can wiggle them and with great effort I can cross them. My legs, the shadow of what used to be. They are a burden now. But I still love them. They are my legs and are the …